.... where should i start? It has reali been long that i start pouring out my thoughts again...
thousands and millions times i wanted to write out those feelings that i have kept inside of me.. but the thought of writin was simply overwhelmed and soon faded by tiredness and tears. Some how i cant find words to replace my emotions animore.. like wat i used to. It seems the most difficult thing to do now! Someone please help me! Or maybe i just simply cant find any words to replace the confused me.. all that i am feeling and experiencing... who can understand me?
Well, lets do a simple sum up for 2005.
All i can say when doing the year review, i dun really rem alot of things. I only know God is good and He still is!
i think i had a splendid year! My heart's desire, my dream came to pass.. i became a CGL! tats my calling! I cant believe it! I am so happy that i went speechless when bro ed announced it! My pals went crazy with me too when i told them abt it. ^_^ well that dream came with a high price i got to pay, not mentioning the sacrifices, its nothing really.. Its just the beginning! =) I love the ppl God placed in E362. Every single one of them! I am loving them more each day..E362 you are the best!
Of course the highlight of the year was i went bible school!! SOT!! Whoohoo! just the name itself makes me whoa! I still rem we started sch on 14th Feb. Nice day isnt it>?? We had so much fun getting to know our new found frens from overseas. just a simple conversion with them reali felt i know the world! You bet they are good! dun play play!Then its the battle every tues to fri morning with the zzzz monster. Guess who wins? well. thats for u to find out! The lessons and experiences, every min and sec that i spent in SOT, let me tell u, its so indefinitely precious! I would not trade them for anything else! Of course its not just goin to sch, and beating the clock to scan your card, but its the encounters with God that transformed my life! And guess wat before you know it, its 18th Dec! Its graduation!
Putting on the gowns, adjusting our mortar boards, making sure we look the best, wearing the sweetest smile ever, one by one, proudly and steadily, we were on the stage! We shook Dr Jeff and Pst Kong's hands. Received our cert and we are back in our seat again! At the count of 3 when Pst Kong presented the 2005 class to the whole congregation, it was raining mortar boards in Expo Hall 8! not forgetting there were lighting (camera flashes) and thunder (thunderous applause and cheers) too! Did u miss it? Wow! And.. i heard a few *0Uch* here and there in the background.. keke..I am one of the culprit! Then its the usual photograph sessions and that spell the end of my sch life!
And then now no sch, i reali missed all the late nights rushing assignments, the after school fellowship, the long traveling yet enjoyable trip to sch.. all that can only be rem now. I will never forget how in SOT i grew closer to God..
Life still move on.. soon its christmas and the its the new year..2006! Nothing exciting and much to share about. Dunno why. Normally it should be an excellent chance of sharing joy w others but on this pg of my life i've got a blank page...
2006 unknowingly crept in.. bid 2005 off silently..the new year... as the word suggest "NEW", is everything gonna be new? Maybe...
Its time to set visions and resolutions again. What do i want to see myself achieving this year? It seems a depressing year for me.. i didnt start it well.. it will be a long story if i wrote everything down. Pst Kong preached about moving on to a new level this year.. is it going to happen to me? yes or no?
2006 means looking for new directions for me..am i going to continue with my degree or shd i look for a job? .. or better still get married and sit at home and shake leg! haha.. Definitely not for me.. its so boring!! Well so i have been mugging myself at work! All i can see now is W>O>R>K!!! nothing else.. such a boring me isnt it? Right now, i am really lost... i guess thats why i am drowning myself by working..I cant imagine myself working 66hours last week! I am emotionally, physically and mentally challenged and drained. there seems to be alot of things waiting for me to take actions and certain things have progressed... from bad to worse.. and no response from ting yet..
I have been struggling with reali alot of issues in my life. I guess God is doing HIs work in my life.
Internet not functioning for one month already.. was losing out reali alot on my frens blogs and msn.. finally its back again! yipee! had a great time reading and catching up with them. so much has happened... good and bad!
still got so much to write... but i am tired le.. catch up soon!
Like wat minghui said.. its so therapeutic.. i just love writin..
tired ting~
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