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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

I wAnt~

Not I need to.. but

I want..

I want to know who am i
I want to know my greater purpose in life
I want to move on
I want to be a better leader
I want to ex-cel in everything i do
I want to see my members on fire more for Jesus
I want to be more diligent
I want to be a guitarist for Him
I want to be a better friend
I want to be bolder
i want to be happier

I want to experience my breakthrough soon
I want to move out of my dead end
I want to know am i on the right track
I want to cRy
I want to express myself better
I want to migrate out of my depression
I want to reformat my mind
I want to erase my past
i want to give up
I want to rest

But...
I want to know You better
I want to love You more
I want directions now

More than all these..
i just want Y0u...

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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

I mAdE iT!!

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Monday, July 18, 2005

BlUeSsss
Stole the Rooster’s job this morning, woke up early, went to the airport with Garvin and Ruoyang. Hui Shan is leaving for Australia today.. SO fast.. she is going there for 2 whole years to study.. Will miss her I think. Oh man, the departing scene is just so so sad.. Shan’s parents and her cousins and relatives couldn’t help but have tears rolling down their cheeks, while the rest of us, looked at them helplessly. I dun know abt the rest, but I am holding back my tears. Deep down in my fragile heart, I was crying buckets. Maybe they too got tears welding up in their eyes.. None of us exchange our feelings nor look at each other directly. Guess we all have mixed feelings abt shan’s departure. That kind of feeling I dun wanna experience it again. To have someone close to you leaving yr side, you will feel.. maybe handicapped.. like some part of you went missing. It’s only times like this that you will know how impt how the ppl ard are. So do not even attempt to take your friends for granted.
I went thru something similar before. One of my very close friend met with an accident. Thank God nothing serious happened but my heart sank when I heard the news. Onli then I know how precious and deep our friendship was.
Although shan and I not very close, still you will feel something. We spend reasonable time, praying, talking and laughing together so I guess its rational that cant bear to see her leave. It seems like got lots to tell her but when was dumbfolded when we saw her. It seems like all the words stopped flowing out from our mouths. Think its very brave of her to leave everything behind here and go to a foreign city to carry on with life! Hui shan, Jia you!
Saturday went to sis PY cg to help her play during ministry time.. haha! Super surprised when she approached me. Was super kan cheong! Not very familiar with the acoustic guitar and the song but God is good! Anointing and His presence hit the whole mtg. Whoosh~ solid! I am glad I went. Was ministered to, learnt a lot and got breakthrough myself! Can never know how God moves.
Went to celebrate Minghui’s birthday with em on sat at Raffles City Coffee Club. Had a hearty, comfortable time chatting with each other. Had a fruitful day on sat!

Y0u mAdE mE cRy aGaIn~

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Friday, July 15, 2005

the first time

whoo hoo! now SOT break! making use of every min.. time is prescious! yeah yesterday was my first time.. it was so cool! i never thought i could do it. its so amazing! Indeed all things are possible with Christ! I did it not knowing how! God is good! the feeling is beyond words. Looking forward for more! Tonight there is going to be another first time.. same thing, i dunno how.. but i trust Jesus to going to move for me again ! Believing God for more breakthru! its on thw way. yup, tell u guys more next time.. need to go.. bye!

U r y~

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Monday, July 11, 2005

You Are . . .

You are…
Some day some how, you stepped into my life. Unknowingly steal a very important place in my heart. You made me cried, laugh, getting all the possible emotions erupting out from me. With your simple little actions and words, you have inspired and changed my life course. The challenges you thrown right into my face injected determination and even more fighting spirit to live my life more meaningful for Jesus! Yes, you did that!
Although I knew you for some calendar years but I think u know me better than I know you. Frequently, I bared my heart to you having no reservation but you are contained within yourself. I know you only to the extend I see you. Surface isn’t it?
Sometimes I find you abit eccentric, haha no offence but I do feel that a little. I am at a loss when I faced you, not knowing what are you thinking in that little deep witty brain of yours. It seems too hard for me to comprehend what provoked that another side of you. But it reali sets me thinking hard on the edge of my chair. Those few unwanted and unnecessary feelings send shiver down my spine, as all I get was just a pair cold, empty eyes. I cant help but it sets me pondering for moments that are you the one that I reali know? Was that something I did wrong that deserves those undesirable expressions from you? *sHruGs* All I knew and I ever want to commit to my memory are those wonderful times that we spent laughing at each other, those silly thing around us and simply just enjoying each other presence. Many times, I tried to be the best I can be… just a very good friend to you, maybe I am not there yet, to you it might be nothing, it seems nothing. It doesn’t matter much if it didn’t arouse your attention, I am just contented with just exerting every single inch of my energy to do what I can. You can have expectations. I am exceedingly sorry for not being capable of meeting those unmentioned expectations of yours. You might feel and I give you permission to be irritated with me, thinking I am just some silly clown, ignorant, but this is me.. I cannot be your perfect friend. All I want to be is.. just be your best friend I ever know how.

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Monday, July 04, 2005

UneXpeCted JuNe~

tick-tock! tick-tock! time.. be careful, dun blink yr eyes, before you know it, it has quietly creeped pass you.. its gone!
ha, i cant imagine.. last week of school holidays for me. so leopard fast! This week having exams for the first time in bible school. Dunno wat kind of questions to expect. Anticipation plus anxiety, a funny mixture isnt it? Sitting down revising in my mind how i have wasted my whole June holidays, regrets just embraced me. Well i cant possibly turned back the clock or simply pressed snooze so that wake up call can be later, what has happened has already become a reality.. so real, so true, so unbelievable! so its time to wake up! *smack*
Except for Amazing Emerge, i think June doesnt really excites me. Laziness are just like ants, kept on crawling to me. Aimless, purposeless were my best friends then. They never failed to accompany me. Spending a few hours at work seems eternity and fellowshipping with my bed seems more fruitful afterall. Nothing to worry about. *tsk*
*pIak*so.. then my wake up call came last week, decided to die to those creepy crawlers in my life and saying bye to my "best friends". Flight ST took off once again departing from the runway of encouragements, deserting behind doubts, selfishness, stinky attitiude, now soaring in the sky, happily in the arms of Jesus! Thats the best place to be! hoots!
My heart longing to go for holidays can never be satisfied at the moment.. ah lian and amber went KL! think they had so much so much fun. And they were shopping like they haven done any for decades. My, look at the things they bought, cool and the most impt thing. its all discounted! wah! eyes turning green.. someone turn on the white light! Yup, but nvm, i had my fair share of fun too! whoohoo! Went to east coast with Emily on tues. We cycled till we cant sit still on our bikes *0uCh* >_< and went sat by the beach. Never expect ourselves to be roasted under that scorching sun! wanted a tann badly but got burnt instead..sssiiiii. Who cares abt those temporary burnt when we enjoyed ourselves to the max! yeah! =)
HA! I really cannot comprehend how much i went thru this whole June! Its like so out of this world! Have been experiencing breakthru in my cg! God is good! This week got 8 friends joined us for service! heeha! whoa! N the best part of June was, finally i know i am there, after so much struggling and fighting. I made it! I cannot believe my ears and eyes! It came! I onli going to make it better! Jesus help me!
School gonna start! cant wait! Assignment accomplished! lalala!
Gonna make everyday count!

li0n~all f0r y0u

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