Well well
got lots of stuff flooding my thoughts.. haven piece them into words yet.. not much to say..
All i can say now God is good!
It seems like God is putting me to the fire again.. this time double the times the oven is heated up.. *0uCh*
Tues late night received that surprised call, was kinda of expecting it but didnt know it was so soon. Felt happy for her! At the same time, also hmm.. ya! Jia you k girl!
The most devasting thing gonna happen... and it did happened again! Overwhelmed with sadness, i chose to dwell in my world. Facing my helplessness, i decided to embrace the negative, refusing to face up to reality. No words could explained that kind of disappointment, a hurt.. so deep within.. I wanted so much to hang on but at the same time wanted to give up as well. It was emotionally draining..
But He will never left me alone.. He was there always.. so close, so real.
I am comforted in His presence and He assured me. Though that hurt was deadly enough to seize my little brain.. Nothing reali compares to being with Jesus. All that were unwanted were pushed behind by His love. At the same time, i realised heaps of things. Friendship can be so valuable.. so indefinitely important... But it can never work out without simply having trust.. Thats the most important foundation i think.
Lian, Amber and Hui thanks for everything!
0vErc0mInG!!
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Anonymous entered S.A.L.T @ 10:34 PM
God is good!
He has been giving me revelation after revelation..heeha! =)
Esp in school, many times He spoke to me. I remembered once last week.. I was sitting down exerting every strength from within trying to pay attention to what was being delivered by the enthusiastic lecturer. I wanted to learn smtg new and fresh, thoughts like these flooded my mind. Ok so, i looked at the lecturer through my glasses, waiting in anticipation. Then.. Holy Spirit reminded me.. Whats a revelation. Hmm, strange isnt it? I was like ok.. revelation arh! Someone without a revelation will be like one who needs to wear glasses and did not wear. Their vision will always be blurred, they cannot make out where they are going. Thats why always lost their way and bump into walls. But a person with revelation will be someone with their specs on! Now, the vision is clear, the direction is clear! So owning a revelation is like Jesus showing you the way so obvious, so direct, it can never go wrong! I am wearing my specs of revelation each day, knowing in my heart, Jesus will show me His ways! Yeah!
God impressed upon my heart again about loving Him more during one worship session last week too! Honestly, i was distracted in my mind. Simply too preoccuied with things happening around me. Just couldnt focus, only my mouth and body were worshipping.. Then i told GOd thats not what i want. We were singing the song Fall.. Then we sang in chinese.. Towards the end of the song, worship was already ending, i made a prayer to Jesus telling Him, alright for the last few mins i dun care whats going to appear and take over my mind but right now i just wanna worship with my all! Ok, so i sang with all my heart the last line, in chinese.. qiu ni chong man wo... i meant every word! Then God gave me a vision! Hmm! He said i am just like a car. Everyday going places, doing this and that, travelling around, so preoccupied with so many thing. At the end of the day, when petrol runs low, its time to go back to the gas station and pumped up with petrol again so i can continue with my journey. Holy spirit reminded me, the car can only runs on petrol and not other elements. Not water, not soft drinks.. so definitely there is no substitute for the petrol. So, petrol to me now is like the Holy Spirit in my life, everyday when i feel tired, drained at the end of the day, i must rem to go back to my Petrol Station and get myself pump up full tank with the spirit of God! Thats my source! Nothing in my life can replace the Holy Spirit in my life.. no matter how much i sleep, how i look to other sources for strength and assurance, I will never get the most appropriate and satisfied solution.. thats why Holy Spirit has made me realise He is the petrol of my life!
PumPing uP!
Vro0o000ooommm!
Anonymous entered S.A.L.T @ 11:30 AM
I love this week!
Yeah! So happening! Sis Jerb, lian and my cg had a combined cg mtg on sat at braddell to celebrate mooncake festival! I tell you ppl, we never knew the mtg would turn out to be tremendously anointed one with God's presence. I am certainly sure they are so soaked in the presence that you wanna more of it! Ya of couse cannot do without games. Fellowship was at super high note when the members engaged all their creativity to think of all the possible ways on the history of mooncake! The best part; they gonna act it out! Whoohoo without saying, all the groups were super hilarious and innovative. They used their talents and all the possible props that they can find and put up a great drama showcases of the festival! My! They are the Zoe Tays and the Gurmit Singhs in ET zone! haha! We all had fun laughing at each other! The whole fellowship was really brightened and lifted up with all the endless laughters and the warmth radiating from each individuals.
This mtg really impacted my life somehow. I saw how God can use us, how He took control of the whole mtg and turned the situation around for us! Jesus you are the best! All my members told me the mtg were superb! The best thing that happened to me, not knowing how, i actually lead praise in tune! I am not afraid you will laugh at me but its so unbelieveable that i actually cant believe my ears too! I enjoyed every minute of it! Worship was good too! Of coz the preaching of the Word could not be missed with sis Jerb anointed teaching. All of us were super blessed and i definitely was in awe at the way sis Jerb preached and the way she shared! Powerful! I am so captivated ! Sis Jerb, you are the best! Ou xiang! =)
Not forgetting, my new friend, Jia Sheng! He super cool and cute. He very solid too. Attended svc and cg though got exam on Mon. He was impressed and convicted by the WOG! Most importantly, gave his life to Jesus today! Hallelujah! And guess wat, this new friend of mine lives in the same block as chun kiat, which is also the place of my cg mtg! haha! He onli needs to take the lift up to the tenth floor to attend cg mtg every week since he lives on the 6th floor! Amazng isnt it! He is so eager about cg that he already called Shing and questioned her why didnt she tell him what to bring for cg! Haha! God i want more friends like that! =)
I realised I am deeper in love now.. with my CG.. E362, I love u all! Of coz.. Jesus too!
To my best friend: Pop! Fireworks! *clAps* So happy for you! Finally, yr loooong awaited dream is coming to pass very soon! =) Jia you orh!
Y0u aRe mY aLL!
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Tiring week..
Nevertheless.. God is still good! The most memorable of the week..E362 CG mtg! Yeah! Was super troubled for the first half of the day.. with so many things occupying my mind.. no guitarist blah.. aniway shan talk abt it ani more. Yup so i was super desperate for a guitarist, with no1 available i guess i dun have a choice.. i decided to play for myself. Felt that prompting by the Holy Spirit that i shd play too... maybe thats why i cant find a guitarist..haha! =) Ok with mountain moving faith ^_^, i played. Praise, i think was better.. finally after a few weeks, though it was funny! ha ppl thanks har! Worship was the much anticipated part. Initially it seems like a normal worship session for all, but as we continued on.. pressing in into the presence of God.. GOd presence came.. so real, so tangible. My members they cried, with tears in their eyes and a hungry heart, they cried and reached out to God.. The atmosphere was amazing.. no words can describe. Dun feel like ending the worship but CG got to go on. I had a good time preaching as well! Being rich! After cg, my members told me.. they had encountered God, experienced Him in a whole new total manner! whoa i am blown off! I cant wait to hear from them!
T0day lian shared with me smtg..
She said a leader is one who goes, knows and shows the way. Ya its about directing and leading. But then God showed her.. Jesus is the WAY, the truth and the life..so putting it to what she knows..
it became..
A leader is one that goes with Jesus, knows Jesus and shows Jesus!
Powerful isnt it?
Y0u aRe all tHat i wAnt~
Anonymous entered S.A.L.T @ 10:59 PM
Whoooosh!
Weeks after weeks just passed like that! So flying fast man! Already tried graduation gown and the SOT ring. I think before i know it, i am going to miss school le. I definitely will...
God has been so real in my life. Always there besides me! Always assuring and talking to me! Got a few revelations here and there.
During the first fruit weekend, Pst Ulf came and he laid hands on all CGLs for all services. Felt priviledged and reali needed that touch from God! Responded for 3 altar calls as i onli went for 3 services but its good enough le! The one that caused a deep impact in my mind was reali my own service, S5! Uptill now, i still remember vividly what God impressed upon my heart! As i am all geared to get prayed for, i felt God tangible presence so real and so near to me. I have yet to experience that for some donkey years. Can you imagine the amount of tears that was flowing down my face? Hmm ya! So i waited, Pst Ulf came, laid hands on me.. Bang! God's presence and anointing hitted me real hard.. Then the word came.. God said REVIVIAL! My immediate reaction was what! I dun understand and i do not know how.. I reali got zero idea. Then, gradually God reminded me that its time that i start reviving my own spiritual life, my love for Him. He also wants me to go and revived my members' life as well. They have been feeling lost, out of touch and losing focus. God wants me to bring them back to HIs presence again! This time, on fire more, being more fervent! And of coz reviving my cg unity spirit and also evangelism! He said He will help me! I smiled, He smiled too! I know i can! Then i think harder, everytime when Pst Ulf comes, he always bring revival in different areas and pushing us up to a new level. Now after he laid hands on us, I believe in the impartation! I can have that revivial anointing too! E362 will experience it! Yeah! Jin Lian got the same experience as me, isnt that cool! =)
Then the following week during svc, Pst Kong laid hands on us too! God without fail turned up again right beside me, whispering into my ears, this time, HE said RENEW! Jesus reminded me many times i have fallen bcoz of tiredness and my own weakness, but now God say He will renew my life. I am going to come out strong! A different Su Ting i will be. Now i am transforming, He is changing me, renewing my life as He begins to show me my priorities in life. I thought i knew them but i was wrong. He knows better than i know myself! He has been challenging me to love Him more n more! Unmeasurable, increasing more! Its this love that willl keep me going too! E362, you will experience it too! I promised!
Tuesday i had a prayer mtg with my CG. Finally, a second one after so many months. Was really looking forward with much anticipation and excitment. This prayer mtg was the first for many many of my young members. Not knowing what to expect, they came! For the first time, i am praying with this whole bunch of young members, having no grasp whats going to take place next. I dun have my helpers ard.. Was experiencing waves after waves of anxiety as i also dun know what is going to happen in this mtg too.. Well i know i got the most impt Helper, thats enough! The moment i started my mtg, He was there. Had a wonderful time worshipping and praying! All of them took a step of faith and prayed! I am so proud of them! Felt elated! So happy that i cant stop smiling! E362, I loveee you! Seeing them stepping out really reminded myself how far i have came in my walk with GOd, how i used to be like them. Jesus.. its all worth it! Revival and Renewal on the way!
Of course, before the mtg started, i asked GOd for a word for the CG. God showed me Psalm 40:1. Its about worshipping Him in the midst of all your tiredness. With reference to ISa 40:30-31 also, Holy Spirit showed me, as youths, we are no exception , we will feel tired too! But the crucial part.. When we feel tired, Ps 40:1 says "I WAITED PATIENTLY for the Lord; And He inclined to me, and heard my cry." Then suddenly, it was brought to my mind what does it means to wait patiently. Its like we having an appointment with a friend. Our friend did not turn up after very long.. Usually the impatient us will pick up our phones and start calling our friends and asked them where they are. And we will keep on calling until we our friends appear before us. Same way for worshipping God, everytime when it comes to worshipping, its a date or an appointment with Jesus.. Like wat we will do in the natural, Jesus is not going to come immediately. After a while, when we do not sense Him, dun give up! Keep on calling, He will hear our cry and He will come eventually! That will be the best appointment ever! And When He comes, Isa 40:31 says our strength will be renewed! Now yes we have strength, but not our strength animore, but its God supernatural strength. Thats why we can do ALL things thru Christ who STRENGTHENS us! As i began to share this with my CG, i believe they have received it in their spirit.. this week onwards they will experience God's supernatural strength! A supernatural week awaits them! =)
To my new found best friend: Today i wanted to tell you desperately how much you meant to me.. I handed you my mirror. That mirror is not my best friend neither is myself. But in fact i wanted you to look into that little answering revealing mirror of mine, you will instantly understand who is the person i was referring to. Is it too hard? You get it now? Love ya! =)
In Love Always~
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Anonymous entered S.A.L.T @ 11:40 PM
You'll love what you love.
Whatever you give your heart to is what you'll gain pleasure from.
Whatever the heart loves it wants more of.
The heart is not satisfied with what it loves.
Thus we need to ensure that what we love is the highest.
If we love small valueless things, that's what we will get our kicks from.
This is why we must choose what we love, high, great things.
What we love must be the highest priorities of life.
'Love the Lord your God with all your heart....,' (Mark 12:30)
Anonymous entered S.A.L.T @ 11:36 PM
endless stretch of sandy beaches is what i saw on mon. Under that scorching sun, walked with Wanjun for some silly distances till we finally found a favourable spot to rest our feet for the day and to get ourselves "burning" in the sun! whoohoo! Went sentosa on mon morning after a long night work on sunday. We simply cant resist the temptation of going to the beach and relax. hmm.. yeah the sea breeze, the splashing waves, the soft sandy beaches, the ever burning sun.. hmmm did u smell holidays coming?
Now i am burning hot after an hour nap under the sun. I was burnt to the skin! man! pain! *scratch* haha aniway i enjoyed myself. morphed into an red indian for a few days! keke!
Yeah so happy! Finally found a job! thanks to my Jesus and my darling friend! Someh0w this job spells the start of my new journey again! well at least it got me started. No more laziness! Am loving it! yum! The best part, i planned my own time and seems i am like e boss.. haha.. so this makes me more freed up to do my own stuff, at my own pace and time. Isnt that good? Claps! Just got my first pay for my undefined hard work! $91! What a good start! I promised i will work harder and be passionate about my new job. *wInKs*
Today went for Amber evangelistic mtg! Whoa wow! What can i say? Its really not easy.. Total ppl attended was close to seventy. 0_0 with three quater of it, new friends! The mtg went well, guess everyone enjoyed themselves! Praying hard for u amber, all the friends that came will be yr potential members! YeAh! Well i learnt and have experienced alot today! Its eye opening! I am inspired and impressed! I have to jia you le!
In battle again! Fight!
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