Whoooosh!
Weeks after weeks just passed like that! So flying fast man! Already tried graduation gown and the SOT ring. I think before i know it, i am going to miss school le. I definitely will...
God has been so real in my life. Always there besides me! Always assuring and talking to me! Got a few revelations here and there.
During the first fruit weekend, Pst Ulf came and he laid hands on all CGLs for all services. Felt priviledged and reali needed that touch from God! Responded for 3 altar calls as i onli went for 3 services but its good enough le! The one that caused a deep impact in my mind was reali my own service, S5! Uptill now, i still remember vividly what God impressed upon my heart! As i am all geared to get prayed for, i felt God tangible presence so real and so near to me. I have yet to experience that for some donkey years. Can you imagine the amount of tears that was flowing down my face? Hmm ya! So i waited, Pst Ulf came, laid hands on me.. Bang! God's presence and anointing hitted me real hard.. Then the word came.. God said REVIVIAL! My immediate reaction was what! I dun understand and i do not know how.. I reali got zero idea. Then, gradually God reminded me that its time that i start reviving my own spiritual life, my love for Him. He also wants me to go and revived my members' life as well. They have been feeling lost, out of touch and losing focus. God wants me to bring them back to HIs presence again! This time, on fire more, being more fervent! And of coz reviving my cg unity spirit and also evangelism! He said He will help me! I smiled, He smiled too! I know i can! Then i think harder, everytime when Pst Ulf comes, he always bring revival in different areas and pushing us up to a new level. Now after he laid hands on us, I believe in the impartation! I can have that revivial anointing too! E362 will experience it! Yeah! Jin Lian got the same experience as me, isnt that cool! =)
Then the following week during svc, Pst Kong laid hands on us too! God without fail turned up again right beside me, whispering into my ears, this time, HE said RENEW! Jesus reminded me many times i have fallen bcoz of tiredness and my own weakness, but now God say He will renew my life. I am going to come out strong! A different Su Ting i will be. Now i am transforming, He is changing me, renewing my life as He begins to show me my priorities in life. I thought i knew them but i was wrong. He knows better than i know myself! He has been challenging me to love Him more n more! Unmeasurable, increasing more! Its this love that willl keep me going too! E362, you will experience it too! I promised!
Tuesday i had a prayer mtg with my CG. Finally, a second one after so many months. Was really looking forward with much anticipation and excitment. This prayer mtg was the first for many many of my young members. Not knowing what to expect, they came! For the first time, i am praying with this whole bunch of young members, having no grasp whats going to take place next. I dun have my helpers ard.. Was experiencing waves after waves of anxiety as i also dun know what is going to happen in this mtg too.. Well i know i got the most impt Helper, thats enough! The moment i started my mtg, He was there. Had a wonderful time worshipping and praying! All of them took a step of faith and prayed! I am so proud of them! Felt elated! So happy that i cant stop smiling! E362, I loveee you! Seeing them stepping out really reminded myself how far i have came in my walk with GOd, how i used to be like them. Jesus.. its all worth it! Revival and Renewal on the way!
Of course, before the mtg started, i asked GOd for a word for the CG. God showed me Psalm 40:1. Its about worshipping Him in the midst of all your tiredness. With reference to ISa 40:30-31 also, Holy Spirit showed me, as youths, we are no exception , we will feel tired too! But the crucial part.. When we feel tired, Ps 40:1 says "I WAITED PATIENTLY for the Lord; And He inclined to me, and heard my cry." Then suddenly, it was brought to my mind what does it means to wait patiently. Its like we having an appointment with a friend. Our friend did not turn up after very long.. Usually the impatient us will pick up our phones and start calling our friends and asked them where they are. And we will keep on calling until we our friends appear before us. Same way for worshipping God, everytime when it comes to worshipping, its a date or an appointment with Jesus.. Like wat we will do in the natural, Jesus is not going to come immediately. After a while, when we do not sense Him, dun give up! Keep on calling, He will hear our cry and He will come eventually! That will be the best appointment ever! And When He comes, Isa 40:31 says our strength will be renewed! Now yes we have strength, but not our strength animore, but its God supernatural strength. Thats why we can do ALL things thru Christ who STRENGTHENS us! As i began to share this with my CG, i believe they have received it in their spirit.. this week onwards they will experience God's supernatural strength! A supernatural week awaits them! =)
To my new found best friend: Today i wanted to tell you desperately how much you meant to me.. I handed you my mirror. That mirror is not my best friend neither is myself. But in fact i wanted you to look into that little answering revealing mirror of mine, you will instantly understand who is the person i was referring to. Is it too hard? You get it now? Love ya! =)
In Love Always~
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