It seems like life kinda of have slowed down for me..
or is everything moving on except me?
was reminded of pst kong sermon. Imagine yrself driving in a car.Looking at the passing scenery. I am so captivated by my surrounding that I am now crawling at 20km/hr. Not maximising the full potential of the car. not giving my best in everything i do. saw how other cars zoom before me. it seems like i am going to crash any moment even at this turtle speed. am i starting to slack? yesterday pst mike preached about going around the mountain. yup i think i am like tat. As he was preaching, i can fully identified and hey pst u are talking about me isnt it? haha. Then GOd spoke to me. He gave me a revelation..Deu 2:2-3 says " YOu have skirted this mountain LONG ENOUGH; turn NORTHWARD." It like G0d telling me, ting arh, u have been going around circles n circles for very very long le.. its time to move on. Dunno where to go? G0d says turn NORTH. I dunno why north.. i dun understand. Then it dawns upon me to turn north it means to look UP. Okie i got the message. Look to GOd for directions and move on!
y0u know its like when you are lost in a jungle, the help of the compass following north will always lead you out of that jungle. Thinking abt it, i am lost in my world of jungles and forests. Jungles and jungles of disappointment, helplessness. Embraced by only trees of tiredness, clothe in discouragement, thoughts of giving up again. Just bcoz i am so lost and preoccupied with where to go n what to do, i have missed out the bigger picture of many things. Those unwanted feelings have thrown me against the wall. I cant picked myself up again. badly injured! >_< *0uCh* I felt i lost my faithfulness, love for ppl, my passion, no energy, no fire, no excitment, no idea, not enthusiastic le. I lost it all! So now i am like driving a car aimlessly, desperately looking out for signs to tell me which road n path to drive on. I am lost... i need a compass to get out of my jungle. G0d has placed the map, road directory n comapass in my hands now. its my turn to take action.. whether to step out, change gear, step on the accelerator and go north.. I din not tell anyone about this sickening problem of mine. Friday, i went to ah lian CG to play for her during ministry.. She prayed for me.. hmm, well i must say G0d is good! Lian said, asked me not to be so lost in my own world, its time to look to Jesus! I mean wow, i din tell her, she sensed it, Holy Spirit prompted her and gave me that world! all i can think of now is the song.. "... so i look to you..." whoohoo! 6_^ t0 Holy Spirit n Lian: Thank you! You both are the best! No wonder we are the best of friends! yeah!
Well like i said life is slowing down for me. so nothing interesting and exciting reali pumps me up for the last few weeks. Lian and i were late for the mtg yesterday. We were desperate. We din want to take cab n we took the MRT to TPY. When we reached, i think disussions almost done. hmm. Meeting ended before 9, the fastest mtg ever! Dun feel like lingering around for fellowship, the introvert ting is acting up again. *_* so went off earlier with lian, sis py and bro zhifu. Hmm, when we reached amk, it was still kinda of early. Think lian and i abit crazy. Although we din say, definitely we felt very funny going home so early on sunday nite. not used to it.. We were craving for ice cream but dun have the ones we wanted. so our legs carried us to cheers. And then we shopped there! Laughs! we din shop very long there onli for a few mins. we were like some curious aliens from other planets exploring the stuff in the store. n lian was funny as usual! ding dong! keke! but then its like our secondary sch days, man! enjoyed those few moments. What can be compared to spending time with yr best friend ya?
Ya talking about this.. Its been some time we reali talk to each other, reali spend quality time w each other. Like wat you said, reali not used to it. I missed fellowshipping, laughing, chatting and going home with you. I am looking forward! You told me u have move on. You have taken greater and bigger steps in God and you are expanding your capacity. YOu have move on to a new level and definitely doing more for Jesus! I knew u can do it! Just wanna say i am very proud of u! Hui, Jia you!
there must be more to this
who is to show
what is my life to be
I need to know...
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